道一声珍重，道一声平安。
    

    漫步街头的我面对前方的岔路口不知何去何从，左似有豺狼虎豹，右似有迷雾重重。选择！Choose！一个人生中的永恒话题。
    以前看《猜火车》这部电影都极度关注开头的那几句经典台词："Choose life. Choose a job. Choose a career. Choose a family. Choose a fucking big television. Choose washing machines, cars, compact disc players and electrical tin openers. Choose good health, low cholesterol and dental insurance. Choose fixed interest mortgage repayments. Choose a starter home. Choose your friends. Choose leisurewear and matching luggage. Choose a three-piece suite on hire purchase in a range of fucking fabrics. Choose DIY and wondering who the fuck you are on a Sunday morning. Choose sitting on that couch watching mind-numbing, spirit-crushing game shows, stuffing fucking junk food into your mouth. Choose rotting away at the end of it all, pishing your last in a miserable home, nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish, fucked up brats you spawned to replace you. Choose your future. Choose life. " 
    “选择生活，选择工作，选择职业，选择家庭。选择他妈的一个大电视。选择洗衣机，汽车，雷射唱机，电动开罐机。选择健康，低卡里路，低糖。选择固定利率房贷。选择起点，选择朋友，选择运动服和皮箱。选择一套他妈的三件套西装。……选择DIY，在一个星期天早上，他妈的搞不清自己是谁。选择在沙发上看无聊透顶的节目，往口里塞垃圾食物。选择腐朽，由你精子造出取代你的自私小鬼，可以说是最无耻的事了。选择你的未来，你的生活。但我干嘛要做？我选择不要生活，我选择其他。理由呢？没有理由。只要有海洛因，还要什么理由……”
    看起来so cool，so nice吗？是的，反正我曾经这样认为，至少在我的过去的几年之中我认为这是一种态度，一种面对生活的态度，但现在的我似乎更应该去把片尾的那几句台词当成人生供奉的真理："So why did I do it? I could offer a million answers, all false. The truth is that I'm a bad person, but that's going to change, I'm going to change. This is the last of this sort of thing. I'm cleaning up and I'm moving on, going straight and choosing life. I'm looking forward to it already. I'm going to be just like you: the job, the family, the fucking big television, the washing machine, the car, the compact disc and electrical tin opener, good health, low cholesterol, dental insurance, mortgage, starter home, leisurewear, luggage, three-piece suite, DIY, game shows, junk food, children, walks in the park, nine to five, good at golf, washing the car, choice of sweaters, family Christmas, indexed pension, tax exemption, clearing the gutters, getting by, looking ahead, to the day you die.“
    “我为什么那么做？有一百万个答案，但全是错的，原因是我根本就是个坏胚子，但那会改变，我要改变，这是最后一件坏事，我要洗心革面，向前走，选择人生，我已经在期望了。我会跟你一样，工作，家庭，大电视机，洗衣机，汽车，CD播放机，电动开罐器，健康，低胆固醇，牙医保险，贷款，购屋，休闲服，行李箱，三件式的西装，DIY，猜谜节目，垃圾食物，孩子，公园散步，朝九晚五，高尔夫球，洗车，运动衫，全家过圣诞，养老金，免税，清水沟，只往前看，直到你死掉那天为止。”
    不要说我丧失信仰（因为我压根就没有信仰），也不要说我是要疯（因为我早就疯了），用一句经典的教科书般的训导语言来讲“我是在适应社会”，我需要的是改变，虽然这并不一定就是我希望的改变。好，我去选择，但现在选择对我来说似乎不再重要，因为无论我是左拐，还是右拐，仅仅是一个方向性的改变，路的尽头是宝藏，还是死路我不得而知，我唯一能做的就是无论左右，我都尽力而为。左有豺狼虎豹，我便武松打虎，右有迷雾重重，我便拨云见日，总之尽我所能，取我所需，为建设四个现代化贡献出我微薄的力量，烈火青春，不枉此生。
    


    其实都是他妈扯淡，本文中心思想就是挣钱，盖房，娶媳妇。